I hate the sound of slamming doors.

I guess i could let it all go. I guess I do not need to hold on any longer to things that seem increasingly distant to me. Firstly, there is that thing that I am not about to mention here. Even on a blog that does not display itself. And secondly, there is well... Career options.

I hate the sound of slamming doors.

But my fingers ache as the doors slam on them. I can't keep this up forever. Sooner or later I will have to choose.

And yet.

I hate the sound of slamming doors!

I guess thats why I am taking chem. Because I am humji. Scared. Afriad that one day I might look back and curse this decision. But at the back of my mind I do know that by taking chem and dropping econs another door closes slightly. And well... I hate the sight of closing doors too. Coz eventually it'll slam.

The opportunity cost though is not bad. Economics is just reccomended for well, Economics. Chemistry is compulsory. Though bridging modules are avalible for Life Sciences, but not Medicine.

Ironic that its economics reasoning isn't it. How much more useful is the latter. Hai.

I wonder how i went from HELM to this. I mean... I paid a huge price for not going to the humanities programme. Its an enormous, very obvious price. But well. Yah. I dun trust my essay writing skills that much. x)

BCME is the most practical combi for me. But I like Lit. Or liked. Anyway. and BMLE captures my interests perfectly. But its B without C. B without C! And that, as I am often reminded, is stupid.

Bah.

And of course there is the first problem.

I need to learn how to let go.