Time is near up. At 5pm today i would have to push the dreaded submit button and seal my fate. It would be a welcomed, and at the same time a hated, event. It would be a wonderful reprieve as the form has been in my thoughts for days, whether I be sleeping, eating or staring blankly at the computer screen. A welcomed end to the decision nightmare. Yet it would also be the closing off of a subject, a discipline which I have studied for 2 years. The end of it after 2 whole years for, well, 2 more years. If I decide wrongly, Regret would surely then come haunting me, whispering to me, stabbing me in the heart, producing heartache like no other.
I hate decisions.
And this one more than others.
They make me panic, regret... and think too much, as seen in the extremely long paragraph above.
...And as the seconds tick away, I open the webpage for the sixth time since 30 October and wonder and wander...
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